The Motherload

My analyst once said that trying to define 'archetype' is like trying to define 'soul'. Just as you think you have it, it shifts and you find you haven't even scratched the surface.

This has been my struggle lately. The more I steep in the question, "How do I explain archetype," the further I feel from its core.

And so I succumb to hazy mental paralysis and Facebook.

From an archetypal perspective, I have been swallowed by the Negative Mother. My phallic initiative crumbles leaving me with a milquetoast tea drinker for an inner motivator.

Resistance is not only futile, it makes things worse. So I’ve decided to turn my attention squarely on the old hag and see what we both come up with.

Like hinduism, which is understood as a monotheistic religion with the many gods being aspects of a single God, a single archetype can appear in many forms. Here are a couple of mine.

#1 The unkempt ‘Southern Cracker’ woman. She wears a garish floral-print housedress fighting a losing battle against bulges of fat that persist from her moon face right down to her tiny lace-up circa 1940 shoes. She is the devouring clinger who keeps all her chickadees bound and drowning in thick cream gravy. Passivity, emotional blackmail, and need are her weapons. “You’re killing your mother” is often heard around this one.

She's not too bright but her saucer eyes conceal a deadly scorpion sting meant to disempower. She’ll gush about how wonderful having babies is (“You’re not really a woman until you’ve given birth”) to the woman who has just found out she can’t have any. Then she’ll sigh, sip her tea and utter some token pleasantry about adoption. She’ll wonder aloud what’s going to happen to her when her children leave and may even get cancer when one finally flies the coop.

Mother's milk has turned to gall (whatever that is). What was intended to nurture has been perverted so that her ‘food’ or ‘love’ violates the children while feeding her own need. For her, love equals dependence, so her children are caught in a sticky web of guilt: being independent means you don’t love mom anymore. Conversely, in order to be loved, you have to be dependent, less than you are, amputated. Either you're self-denying or you're a bad person.

Her children can't grow up. As adults, they are not mature sexual beings, they can't fully express their creativity, and they can't stop worrying about how claiming their independence might hurt someone else for long enough to get on with their own lives. This can show up as horribly codependent marriages with the ghost of a spark looming in the distant past. Avoidance of real relationships is another way to go: serial dating or near isolation.

In film and literature, examples include the mother in What’s Eating Gilbert Grape? and Mrs. Bennett in Pride and Prejudice.

Negative Mother #2 is tall, taut-skinned, and angular. She wears tweed and a high-collared polyester blouse. I think of her as the Old Woman Who Lived in a Shoe crossed with Nurse Ratchet as a schoolteacher rewritten by Clive Barker. She gets pretty dark.

This one HATES spontaneity. Whereas the Southern Cracker uses emotional blackmail, this one dominates with rigid power and control. Any natural impulse is wrong. Fun is absolutely not allowed. Her child-slaves are beaten and starved, constantly punished for the crime of being children. They are expected to think and feel like adults, set tasks they can’t possibly do and pushed into a hopeless spiral where they can NEVER get it right. Everything leads to failure and punishment.

Your own creativity doesn’t hurt her, it’s just evil. Your existence is a filthy mess she has to monitor to protect her hair’s width notion of acceptability and make sure you don't offend society with your inherent inappropriateness. Mistakes are crimes against humanity. And you must always remember that whatever happens, it’s all your fault.

This woman’s ego is so frail that whatever falls outside her petrie dish of understanding is experienced as tremendously threatening and must be destroyed. From her perspective, as from the perspective of many child abusers, she is the victim.

The mother in Harold and Maude is a good toned-down example.

In all her forms, the Negative Mother does not want you to be happy or fulfilled. She wants you to be her numbed-out plaything, her pretty vapid doll, her castrated son-lover. She keeps you drugged, stoned, drunk, in a food coma, depressed, addicted to internet, worried about the cat, watching crap TV... anything to keep you away from your real life. She might also make you her puppet, going to all the right schools, saying all the right things, having the perfect career, utterly unaware that you hate yourself and your life. Instead you drink, have empty sex, buy toys and forget that the smile you wear isn't really yours.

So she tells you you'll never make it out there. The world is a dangerous place. Everything you do is a failure, so why bother? Why can't you be more like x? You can't do anything right... you've always been such a disappointment. And everyone's gonna laugh at you.

In depression, we are 'pressed down' under her. She is the 'stuckness,' the hazy veil that keeps us from being fully present. She is the enemy of initiative, spontaneity and fun.

She undermines the healthy aggression necessary to propel us into life. In men, she castrates their belief in themselves as autonomous beings. This leads to a constant inner threat of being overwhelmed by women and the man-child phenomenon. In women, she castrates their animus, their inner masculinity. The woman remains in mother's thrall by being depressed or not claiming her own feminine power for fear of outshining and therefore hurting mom. She may never quite have her life together and be the one everyone rolls their eyes about when they hear about the latest stupid thing she has done. Think Rachel Getting Married.

On the other hand, her enraged animus may turn against her and make her overly driven, critical and unrelated to her sexuality aside from it being a means to an end.

I have so much more to say about this. In facing the negative mother, my animus has jumped to life and wants me to lay it all out on the table. But Wisdom, the patient, feminine yin principle is playing, "You gotta know when to hold'em, know when to fold'em..." And so for now I yield to Kenny Rogers.

Almost... Is this next bit necessary or the mark of a manic animus ungrounded by a good connection to feminine wisdom? I don't know. But I do know that I'm free to play and to make mistakes and the worst that can happen is you get bored.

If anyone reading this suspects that I am 'mother bashing', you may be experiencing a bit of the negative mother right now.

Take a moment to sense your body. Anything clenched? Any worries?

We WANT to love mother as much as we think we should. Mother, our personal mother as well as our idea of mother is the giver of life. But she is/was human and flawed. Also, the Archetypal Mother is within us. Her form is influenced by our experience of our actual mother, but there is more to it than that.

If we allow ourselves to look at her honestly, to see her flaws clearly, and how we have been hurt or even crippled, have we betrayed her? It's amazing how easily we confuse honesty with disloyalty. That is the negative mother at work. If we can't think or feel clearly, if guilt and undeserved loyalty keep us from seeing our own truth, we are hers. And if we choose to cut the cord, will we survive? These are some of the conscious thoughts that emerge from the inner reality I have been describing.

Each archetype is both positive and negative. The flip side of the Devouring Life-Draining Mother is the Positive Nourishing Mother.

And we have all had a taste of both, hence the image at the top.

Close your eyes and feel, see, smell, taste, hear, Positive Mother. What comes up?

I get:

warm, nurturing, food, safe, abundance, home, love, fertility, creativity, holding, hug, calm, peace, comfy, soft, accepting, unconditional, relax, curvy, nonlinear, subjectivity, interconnection, community, nature, mercy, wisdom

The Positive Mother supports and holds us so that we go out into the world with an inner sense of security. We have a fundamental sense of OK-ness. We step onto life's stage with few jitters and are grounded enough to know what's really us and what doesn't fit. When everything falls apart in the outer world, there's something within us that takes care of us.

We love ourselves. The cord is cut and we find that we were just fine all along.

Thanks to Amy for finding the photo.